Re: Choosing my own standards
Today I read Choosing my own standards by paco. The first sentences of his argument hit home:
Music is a passion I've always had, but I slowly let go of it because I kept on comparing myself to others and I couldn't find the point of continuing when I felt that everyone was better than me.
I've always had this pattern with my passions: I'd start because of some spark, get really into it, but then lose myself chasing benchmarks to measure myself against others.
I can relate to this. There have been countless times where I picked up the guitar, got really excited, played for a few weeks and made some progress, but eventually put the instrument back down again. Sometimes because life got in the way, but also because I realized that I did not succeed in becoming Slash in two weeks. Which is a ridiculous goal for such a short time, of course. But still.
I'm wired the same way as paco: I seemingly cannot just have a hobby. After a while, I feel like it needs to become something more, while rationally there is absolutely no need for that. So annoying.
Posts like paco's are a reminder that it does not have to be like that. Maybe someday, I'll learn to accept that.